Original loser

Why picking "Original Loser" as title?

It's simple! It's what it's sung in the song I linked. I love it, I find it pretty fun and especially the video. I don't know if I am really an original loser, but what is certain is that I don't try hard to be original.

Maybe I am, maybe I am not... I don't mind at all.

Honestly speaking, when I was younger, I wanted so much to be like everyone else that I preferred hide my true personality. I changed, and finally, I am called weirdo. It's fine! Most of the time it makes me laugh. I don't seek anymore people agreement to be the way I am.

If I had waited after that, I would still hide who I truly am.

It's pointless to lie to myself and to everybody else. I am a real pain, I am always in contradiction, I often change my mind, I rarely talk, but when it happens, I can speak for hours, I am timid and yet I like shocking people, I am dense, I am sarcastic, I am greedy, I am selfish, I am self centered... and you know what... I assume it all!

Maybe it's because the way I see myself that I think I am a loser.

I don't care being a loser! Because, after all, I am still me. Long time ago, someone dear to me told me that I shouldn't feel any shame for who I am, because it's the way god made me. It's the way that I could go through hell without tarnishing my soul. It's the way he loved me more than anyone else.

Alea jacta est !